its been 2 days and i'm missing you, my lappy
never really thought you could mean so much in such a little time...

my C drive couldnt boot,
that explains why its taking so long at the IT help desk,
10 hours or so in total, i'm using yingmin's lappy in the emptyp classroom next door now to blog.

my msn account is screwed as well,
so add me at, ilovehakimo@hotmail.com
now i have to add everyone again, kns!

its official, i need a PART-TIME job to supplement my need for films and developing them.
Dont tell me about the doing closing for 7-11 or filling up petrol for the MRTs.

anyway, i wanna get a:
1)holga,
2)oktopot
3)coloursplash
4)LCA+
5)fisheye

i guess, thats getting into my 'to-buy-list' already.
pfffffffffft

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I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone

Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

this song's on repeat in my phone,
go listen.

okay, i'm going down to get hot.
yes, get hot, its too fucking cold here.

do you know what it feels like to have somoene to throw a lolipop you gave right into the dustbin infront of your face?

pfffft, toilet paper.

 

see what i mean, the world's getting more kinky.

we went to town, yes, town.
am, kay and myself.
headed to lido for some tacos
and someone just had to take some FOH-TAWS(nasally pronounce this) with the fish eye 2!

i think, the world is getting very kinky these days, okay random thought.

after that, i headed to the bus berth with kay.
we chatted from 7.45 to 9.15?
boy oh boy, we talked about lotsa random stuff
from moffats to aaron carter to Sclub7 to 98 degrees to simple plan to busted to pug jelly to god-knows-what else we talked about and finally to MCR.

i feel that i've met her somewhere, somehow before sem2 even started.
maybe in the previous life? (previous life? wtf.)
okeh hakim, stoppit.

ps. i want the jansport bag and the vans slip ons. anyone wanna spare me a 100buckeroos?

i skipped class today, hoho.
one X only, no worries so that means total of 2 Xs.

someone gave havaianas a miss today and came with a pair from charles and keith.
there is a god (inserts cheeky laugh, cheekily)
i'm just waiting for the dress *taps feet patiently*

theresa told me that my voice broke, i sound different from how i sounded like last time.
FFS! it's still the same!

i think the toilet paper thing is outdated,
ade baru punye : 'i know ah, i'm a rubik's cube right, cannot solve me, put me aside!'

you dont fucking listen
when i'm around
so all i can do is close my eyes
cross my heart, and hope to die
cause i cant fucking stand it
when youre around
the least you could do is take it back
all those visicious remarks and verbal attacks.
cause i cant fucking stand it
when youre around

its amazing, really
how i get lost in your eyes
you glimmer but sadly
you see right through mine

your blatant lies slice me
like papercuts in december
you drown sweet sorrow in
the things i once remembered

in a moment
you'll see the fire that i veiled
the beauty that you are
the flame that felt so real

in a moment
you'll know the pain i never should
the truth i kept inside
the love for you thats grown

cause you are
my summer in the winter
the warmth through my december
the love i feel inside
the joy i cannot hide

the adrenaline, the addicition
the pulse that keeps my heart beating
you keep me longing for you
your drive the drugs right through my veins

and you are
every stanza in my love song
without you running through my mind
each tune i played, would seem so wrong

like a rubiks cube
youre impossible to decipher
yet youre so colourful
and make my mind go bonkers.

i love you _____,
thats what my heart's beating to
i wish for you to stay
and never fade away

eventhough you'll never love me back
dont call on winter for me
i'll leave you alone
cause your heart is made out of stone

cause you are
my summer in the winter
the warmth through my december
the love i feel inside
the joy i cannot hide

every stanza in my love song
each tune i played, would feel wrong
without you running through my mind
baby you're my life
you are

i guess i'm just a fcuking doll
come and get me when you need me.

wouldn't want to go home
even if i did
this soul would be behind four walls
ranting behind closed doors

i'm not worthy of your time
so break the fucking clock
and stop the hands from moving
so that everything would stop here

white lies and fake alibis
trust is a strong word
so fucking strong that
it could break necks

i just wish i was special

this is a fucking record i tell you,

5 posts in a day

something is wrong with me, grrrrr.

why am i'm feeling this shit.

fuck, i dont trust anyone.

everyone's fucking sneaky these days

i want to lock myself up and live in a world of my own.

goodbye.