(credits to kay for the photo)
beautiful rainbows,
chasing them has never been this real,
but it has always been an unrealistic dream.


ps. dude, you just fucking ruined everything, fucker.

if something screws up, this is what you do

CLICK HERE. i dont know how to can't post the video here


act like its not there. nyeh.

i've been trying to clean up my inbox since i couldnt sleep last night,
i dont know whats keeping me up all these nights,
i think i'm having a sleeping disorder, will i die from this?

okay, back to the point, i was trying to clean up the inbox but i gave up cause i got turned off by all the sex ad(s) like :
'penis enlargement! its the real thing! you'll be the talk of town!'
even if i did get one, i'm not going to walk butt naked around town, duh.

and theres  another one with,

'Consider our proposition and make sure you shall become a true sexual giant!'
giants, wtf.

iviagra ads, not new but if you get some rolex ad or what, thats a plus point!
(i have no idea what i'm talking about, i think the late nights are getting back at me)

back to the cube, i'm almost getting it!

ps. i didnt use the guidebook ah.

read yoom's post.

i guess whatever he said, is scarily true, its only a matter of time.

'Well, nothing lasts forever - people leave or get sick of you, or decide they'd rather have someone else.'

Take a look around you, its happening everywhere, divorce, break ups, the end of something which used to hold something very meaningful.

One word - 'Separation'
1. action that separates or seperate condition
2. state of being apart
3. agreement not to live together (in law)

'Too much of a good thing, is bad' -
I always wonder, if i can prove this statement wrong.
Maybe, just maybe, with lady luck around me, i could?

i know i sound fucking emo these days,
can't help it, nobody could
sooner or later, everything's gonna surface
i wanna say goodbye now
but i don't have the heart and balls
i saw and felt what i've never been through before
maybe its just me
but i'd like to thank  you for that


i think i'm being paranoid, its okay
i'll leave now
=\

hello world.

i got nth to update about.
i'm a boring person.
i lead a boring life which revoles around food, sleep, msn and the rubiks cube.

goodbye world, i need to solve the damn cube.


ps. i hate passports, i had to wait for 3 hours just to get a damn chop.

ver 1 with lam, sheeks, yoom

your twisted words,
a kaleidoscope of seasons
turning into knives crashing down like rain drops
you shut the door, leaving me on the cold hard floor

does it have to end this way?
everything crashing, i wished for it to stay
all i need was an answer
and not all these false pretense

now i'm hanging from a noose
the one which you tied me to

now i'm hanging from a noose
the one which you tied me to

does it have to end this way?
everything crashing, i wished for it to stay
all i need was an answer
and not all these false pretense

i'm sorry but i'll try to leave, i'll move on
break the rear view mirror and never look back
i'll burn the memories and pictures, you and i shared.

youre dead to me
but i'll wait patiently

i'll drown all of these in a pool of tears and blood.
for what i've did wrong

---

ver 2, with hilary!

your twisted words,
they hurt like a knife in my back
crushing my heart,
its like cutting it out with an axe
then you slammed the door and left me on the floor
i surrender, tonight

does it have to end this way?
Everything’s  crashing, won’t you just stay with me
give me an answer
don’t you turn my life grey
Everything’s  crashing, won’t you just stay
Just stay with me

now i'm hanging from a noose
the one you tied me to
just don’t deceive me anymore
i need you

does it have to end this way?
Everything’s  crashing, won’t you just stay with me
give me an answer
don’t you turn my life grey
Everything’s  crashing, won’t you just stay
Just stay with me

i'm sorry but i'll try to leave, i'll move on
break the rear view mirror and you’ll be gone
i'll burn the memories and pictures, you and i
we shared something special i cant deny but now

youre dead to me
im no longer waiting patiently
i'll drown you in a pool of tears and blood.
I don’t need you anymore, im moving on.


ps. next project, WEATHER GIRL, cause you're so unpredictable.

THANK YOU KAY AND AM FOR THE NICE NICE STUFFS!

i dig the cupcakes and the poster and the bottle!
nyeh.

spent the day with kay, am


and also hayley malay (azuuuraaa) at sentosa.


had a great time, i bet these pictures and memories would help me through in the years to come.

i can't blog much about how i feel just now, words can't describe :D

picture that is gonna be in my 'best shot' folder :

nyeh, i need some comments.

---

dont read this,
=\


lost and broken
hoplesss and lonely
i try to make it seem okay
but my faith is wearing thin

its fading over time
someone, spared me a dime
i've gotta call you
so stop running in my mind

dear god, the only thing i ask of you
is to hold her when i'm not around
when i'm much too far away
we all need that person who can be true to you
but i left her when i found her
and now i wished i'd stayed
cause i'm lonely and i'm tired
i'm missing you again, oh no.
once again.

goodbye, to you.
i'll always go down, as your lover, your friend.

kaye. says:
 ilyana says (12:21 AM)
happy birthday kimi boy!

kaye. says:
frm yana :)

youdontknowme says:
HAHA

youdontknowme says:
tell her

youdontknowme says:
happy birthday to you yana! (asal eh?)

am     says:
hahhah!

kaye. says:
mampos

kaye. says:
 lyana says (12:22 AM)
hahahaha
(R)    ilyana says (12:22 AM)
he should have said thank you la!
(R)    ilyana says (12:23 AM)
he one gundu

youdontknowme says:
`HAHAHA

youdontknowme says:
thanks, yana happy birthday to you

youdontknowme says:
:D

am     says:
hahhaha!!

youdontknowme says:
my first time sia birthday

youdontknowme says:
HAHAHAHA.

am     says:
mampos!

youdontknowme says:
i dont knw what to say

youdontknowme says:
i was just born ed

youdontknowme says:
lol!

youdontknowme says:
borned eh?

youdontknowme says:
lol

 am     says:
jhahha!

kaye. says:
mampos kim

youdontknowme says:
haha

youdontknowme says:
why

kaye. says:
when people say happy birthday

youdontknowme, which makes kay 5. says:
hehe

youdontknowme, which makes kay 5. says:
ooops

kaye. says:
u say

kaye. says:
thank you

kaye. says:
eh eh

youdontknowme. says:
HAHA

youdontknowme. says:
neh

youdontknowme. says:
you neh see anything

youdontknowme. says:
:D

kaye. says:
i think i did

kaye. says:
but nehmind

kaye. says:
i let

kaye. says:
hehehe

youdontknowme. says:
ouh, so people say happy birthday, say thank you ah?

youdontknowme. says:
not say

youdontknowme. says:
happy birthday back ah?

kaye. says:
NO

kaye. says:
say thank you

am     says:
mampos

kaye. says:
thats it

kaye. says:
okay

kaye. says:
u get it now

kaye. says:
u mcm small boy know

kaye. says:
-.-

youdontknowme. says:
i dont knw what

youdontknowme. says:
when ppl say

youdontknowme. says:
selamat hari raya

youdontknowme. says:
i always say

youdontknowme. says:
ouh, selamat hari raya to you too

am     says:
okay, ni dah merepek!

am     says:
!!

kaye. says:
neh mind amm

kaye. says:
we lt him off

kaye. says:
today only



HEEHEHEHE.

happy birthday to me.

aslam IM-ed me ard 10pm:
hi my name is aslam says:
happy birthday
hi my name is aslam says:
sry im tired
hi my name is aslam says:
cant wait till midnight
hi my name is aslam says:
:$
youdontknowme says:
HAHAHAHHAHA
hi my name is aslam says:
yeah :$
youdontknowme says:
ITS OKAY
youdontknowme says:
thanks :D

i found the convo funny. dont ask why.

just now/ytd, was the day i screamed, hohoho. i feel so sexy/scene/screamo.
i want the video feek!
i wanna scream more, it'll hurt my throat one day but who cares right?

ps. my best birthday gift but once again, i'm chasing rainbows =\